OMG i've been to hell and back!

I haven't even posted this week and I had loads to post about and reqs and I fell ill!! Like seriously ill. I woke up monday morning like 3.30am and felt all hot even though my window was open, then my stomach started feeling all sicky. Suddenly I felt this massive urge to be sick, so I ran to the toilet and just was there for like 5 minutes spewing up! Oh god I sound dreadful when i'm being sick. But it really hurt! I went back to bed, had a sip of water (I always take water to bed with me every night) and went back to sleep. Then half an hour later the same thing happened!! I felt so bad! So I woke up again at about 6 with the same feeling!!! And just wanted to die and everything! My mom was out, so there was me being a wuss going 'I want mom!!' to my little brother (bless him bringing me orange juice upstairs about 4 times) and yes that happened again 4 times between 6-11 oclock am just feeling like someone is pushing on my stomach so hard I felt in labour... sorry I don't know what that feels like. I had only half a cup of boiled water for that whole day. Then the same again on tuesday! I can actually tell you what i've ate this week it's so bad!

Monday: 1/2 x cup of boiled water

Tuesday: Same

Wednesday: 3 x custard creams & 2 x boiled water

Thursday: 2 x pieces of toast 1x cup of tea and 2 x custard creams

Friday: 4 x pieces of toadt 2 x tea & 1 x cheesestring

Today atleast i've managed a plate of spaghetti bolonaise! It's so nice to eat. Plus side is i've lost weight, but not a good way to lose it! It'll proberly be gained again by next friday. But because all i've been eating is carbohydrates my stomach is really bloated so i've not been able to do my daily sit ups & my stomach is rock solid! No guys i'm not pregnant! I should know! :-)

Anyways, should be a proper post up tomorrow! Any requests are appreciated because it's so hard thinking of them! I could do some reviews I guess.... Lemme know via formspring! /melissajayxo

Recent Purchases!

Gone a bit shopping crazy this month & treated myself a bit :-)

Yes I now wear glasses, i'm short sighted in my right eye & long sighted in my left. But I only wear them on laptops & watching TV & Reading... but sometimes I just wear them :-)

Barry M 115 red black, I wanted a dark brown but this was the closest I could get, but it's so sheer it would need about 5 coats to get a solid colour. Do not recommend. Barry M 318 peach melba, this one I adore! Just painted my toes with it, perfect light coral, definatly recommend to anyone! Only needed 2 coats. My mac brush 217, best brush ever to invest in if you like blending, OMJEEZUS! I don't understand why i've never had this!! Never one I will regret! And mac 252 for just putting shadow on the lid, i was originally going to get the 239 but the mac artist told me it will blend the colour out into the crease so to get the style I like to get this one, and pretty much love it!

 Peach top/vest with a crew neck & beige bag both topshop (all prices and stuff below)

OMG this jacket I wanted since I saw it!!! But never had the money, but by the time I could get my hands on it, it was sold out, luckily, they got one 12 in online and I grabbed it asap!!! I love it so much! Not gonna lie, I saw kim kardashian in a black drape jacket but loved hers but it was like 855 or something? I'm not loaded.. yet. Google 'black drape jacket river island' for a better/clearer picture of what it looks like on

Glasses - £45 @ specsavers

Barry M Nail Polishes - 2 for £4.99 @ superdrug

Mac brushes - not sure because I bought them at the airport duty free but online and at mac stores they are 217 - £15 & 252 - £21

Cream top - £28.50 @ topshop

Cream bag - £36 @ topshop

Leather drape jacket - £130 @ river island

also i got my nails did for £25 @ yoshe salon in b'ham :-)

that's all for now guys, i'm gonna try post more often!

Skinny Minnie?

Ugh so yeah i've finally decided it's time to lose weight, after about 20095498594 times of saying it. I'm not putting my current weight out there but i'm aiming to get to 8 st 9 :-\ and that's alot actually but i remember weighing myself at that, then I did it another time and I just ballooned, but to be honest, all i want to lose is my stomach and my arms. And my weight is mostly in my breasts as they are relativly heavy. I'm not going on a MAJOR diet because I love food too much and the weight i'm gaining at the moment is just going to my flat ass so it's all good! I'm currently size 10-12 depending on what I buy and the fitting, usually tight tops or hoodies/jackets I buy a 12 in cause of my b00bs. But I usually wear leggings/jeggings in a size 10. Size 8 is usually short on the leg cause I have big thighs (Which I plan to keep!). But I wanna get to size 8-10 so basically drop a dress size. Plus I have such a round face and double chin, no lie!

Thinspiration pics!

(Ignore the nudity, slightly worrying how many half nekkid girls I have on my laptop)

Focus on the belly area, that's what I'm looking at.. I think.

Would I ever have surgery?

I remember ages ago people would take the piss and say oh you need surgery blah blah. But I am actually planning it. So when they said it, I woud just think 'well im getting it so what's your point?' I'm not really bothered what people think or say, because i'm doing it for myself and if it's gonna make me happy then that's all that matters really! I'm not saying what I plan to have because people may use it against me. But if you were to ask me personally I would openly say. It's nothing embarassing but all I will say is currently I only have one/two planned. I sometimes think of loads more I would have done but it's nothing that is as important as this.

I would like to get one done for my 21st but gotta get started on saving first!

Just a quick update as I haven't blogged in a few days

I've started tanning on the sunbeds. I've started on 8 mins and i'm working my way up to about 16 mins, i did that and I was black but working up will make your tan last longer between tanning sessions.

I'm going to Holland Sunday @ 4.15 for a study trip for my course, not looking forward but I guess I gotta go.

I'm buying two new mac brushes over the weekend (I don't know if this is interesting) but i'm purchasing mac 217 & 239. And purchase another one next week and the MAC brush cleanser.

That's about it really

until next post! proberly when i get back from Holland! Trip pics maybe next post!

Bikini!

I wanted a certain bikini from River Island for ages, but having big boobs and that being popular these days it's hard to get a big top. BUT I managed to get one! I'm a size 18 ontop and 10 on the bottom ... bit of a difference. but here it is. It looks pink in the first pink, but it's a fluorescent coral (not orange). I LOVE it to pieces! The top was £16.99 and the bottoms £12.99.